Invisibility

My group of friends are talking about some get together thing they're doing over the weekend. This is rather normal as they do one almost every weekend, yet they never ask me to join. At least not anymore. Half the time it's as though I'm not even here.

I get it, I'm not the most interesting of people, but it's kind of ridiculous. I used to be in their group, but I took it for granted. I wished I didn't have to always hang out with people. That they would just leave me be like one would to a stranger. I never knew how much I'd hate it until it actually started to happen. It feels as though I'm not even here half the time. Why doesn't anyone pay attention? If we are friends then why are my words not heard?

I always wished I could be left alone when lots of people wanted to talk to me, yet now that they don't, I'd do anything to have them include me. Anything to no longer feel invisible.