Pain, you don’t know pain

Despair is alot like chocolate. You feel it, and then it's gone. You crave it. You crave despair. Don't you crave despair? Yes. That itchy feeling in the back of your throat, that won't go away, until you feel despair. Until you eat your cake. Drink your milk. That is despair

Love. Lost. Eternity. Forgot. Remembered. Crying. Caring. Depression. Hope. Satisfaction. Dedication. Repeat.

You thought it was more. It sounds like Eternity.