Foolishly Lonely

Far too often I feel like the outcast. Yes, I am different from everybody else! Amen! Why should I be ashamed? Yet, there are days where I throw a pity party for myself. Alone of course, nobody seems to agree that I don't have any friends, so they don't bother showing up. Instead they pull me out and we celebrate being different together.

Despite this, the world just keeps dragging me down. You're so weird. Why on Earth did you say that? Like they care. In this situation there is only One that can yank me from this sad fiesta. He always reminds me that it's okay to be different, because He made me to be my unique self. I feel like He is constantly scolding me. "What power do your words have over who you will become? I created you as you are, my masterpiece. Are they more powerful than I am? Why are you swayed by the cruel things they say? I love you, even if they do not." When I feel alone, there is another entity inside my heart that stomps it down. Why should any of us feel alone? When the One that has been waiting for us to see Him since long before we first opened our eyes is right by our side, still waiting for us to know Him. God's love is far greater than any feeling of loneliness. This fact is what I hold on to for survival in this world full of mean words.