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Shed Your Skin
Think of a time in your life when you noticed your turning point from teenage hood to adulthood. This isn’t limited to 18 plus only. Some people grow up young and some grow up when they’re older. Neither is bad, so reference the transition age when you “shedded” that skin. What might you do with that skin you no longer wear? Do you dispose of it, tuck it away in a keepsake or pretend it never existed? The possibility is endless, show me what you do with that ‘skin,’ in ANY format.
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I watch my teenager through half-closed blinds

(trigger warning for mention of mental illness etc)

I watch her smile too wide

I watch her leave the house in just torn tights and a fluffy black jacket

I watch her as she twirls through the street with a can in hand

I watch her cry until she has to change the pillow

I watch her insult some 14 year olds back

I watch her lay in bed until she cries from the hunger pains

I watch her sneak a weighing scales into our house

I watch her spend all day at the skatepark

I watch her talk to people she doesn’t like

I watch her fight with her girlfriend everyday

I watch her flush food down the toilet

I watch her throw up what little food she did eat

I watch her do lines off a self-help book

I watch her hurt herself to the same hyper-pop song everynight

I watch her sneak out of the house at midnight

I watch her meet up with people who just want her drugged

I watch her sit in the CAMHS waiting room with big boots and a bigger scowl

I watch her take antidepressants and antipsychotics

I watch her become more and more numb with every day

I watch her take an OD and fall asleep with the worst pain

I watch her lie to doctors and show her scars when she felt unheard

I watch her long to be so ill that they would hospitalise her

I watch her hit her head off walls and black out, not remembering it when her mother brings it up

I watch her scream at her girlfriend for caring

I watch her romanticise Euphoria and use bad eyeliner

I watch her never sleep and give herself tattoos that she knows she’ll regret

I watch her sit on her windowsill because she liked how it made her friends worry

I watch her destroy herself

I watch her, trapped in the future, thinking if only she knew that her future self cares about her

I watch myself stumble upon that same hyper-pop song and have honest to god flashbacks

I watch myself hear the name of the meds and have even more flashbacks

I watch myself have to take the same OD substance and have yet another flashback

I watch myself start to have compassion for my teenager

I watch myself defend her, she was just so angry and so sad

I watch myself recognise that she made so many mistakes

I watch myself grow, while leaving room for her to stomp around

I watch myself move away from the half closed blinds

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