It wasn’t how loves supposed to feel

And now I know, that wasn't how love was supposed to feel.

It was too early for my feelings to queue.

After all, I really did not know the real you.

The identity of us, we relished in, that was our downfall.

For the first time I saw you without the rose-colored glasses.

In that instant I knew the real you.

I scratched our names out of the walls of the sistine chapel.

What we had should have never been written on those holy church walls.

What we had should have never been written on those holy church walls.

Suddenly my heartbeat sway to a waltz and your's a tango.

So quickly we fell out of harmony.

I came out of those pink clouds of sobriety.

I landed on steady feet when I realized to heaven our love hardly belonged.

When you caught my breathe I felt the collapse of my lungs.

You took my breathe and I trusted you to return it to my soul.

But cruelly you held my breathe in your hands watching as I sank not a myrrh of dust.

This isn't how love's supposed to feel.

You were a mistake.

I won't forget you.

I won't dare regret you.

Now I know how it's supposed to feel I know how it should feel.

I've accepted this momentary heartache.

Too long I've lingered in the hope of what if.

But deep down think I always knew our love wasn't true.

we didn't end in five days it was more like fifty-five days,

I'm already seeing myself without the idea of you.

I hate that you were the first to my heart evade.

But I won't take that from you.

you're good at what you do but I played the game better.

in this love crusade I won.

I'll admit that you seeing me beyond my worst healed my heart.

You assumed the power to take off my cloak of invisibility.

I showed you pieces of my soul even though I think now I was merely an object.

You sprayed poison over the butterflies you awakened.

My legs no longer shaky my thoughts no longer innocent.

I gave you the keys to the mechanical beatings of my chest.

But now I've taken them back, my heart I remain the owner of.

You may have come in the night and burglarized my heart.

And for a moment I kept the lights out.

I didn't call for help.

But when I turned on the lights I recognized who you were beyond the sweet words.

Between your lingering gazes.

beyond your kind smiles.

I saw monsters wear different types of faces.

and in the kindest of eyes is where demons lie.