This That Binds

Why is it always the people you want to stay

Leave this world too soon?

Leaving loved ones behind

Encumbered by grief

Without a voice to hear

Once more

And yet

the ones who hurt you the most

Live the longest

Just an hour away

Spewing lies

To make themselves the hero

And you the villain

In their version of a fairytale

Mum died

Dad lived

What a cruel twist of fate

And it keeps turning

His absence in life a constant reminder of a hoax called childhood

Facade of fake niceties

Shattered dreams and promises

Where I learned monsters

Are real

Her absence a reminder that what was good and pure can not exist in this hell we call earth

It will be swallowed up

She was too much for this world

Misunderstood

Unloved

Abused

An absence of a body that bound her here gives freedom to a spirit that soars

For we are more than this body that binds

I hope she is everywhere, flittering in the air

Fulfilling every dream

Chasing sunsets

But selfishly

I wish she was here

With me

Her little one

Drinking morning tea

Hugging and rubbing my back

Unwaveringly proud

To help me make sense of this cold world on fire

A world that has broken me too many times to count

A fragile broken bowl

Bound back together

by fire and gold

I too am too much for this world

But this is my superpower

My mother told me so