Happiness

life is strange.

some days you are smiling until your cheeks hurt and laughing until your stomach aches.

yet some day you can't even move.

some days it feels like when you put your head down, you will instantly fall asleep.

i convinced myself this was normal. that highs and lows are a part of life.

i convinced myself that happiness was just out of reach. that if i stayed a little longer, happiness would be obtained. that it would come and cradle me and hold me close.

it would be the answer to all of my problems.

i smiled empty smiles, and laughed hollow laughs. i thought about living. i put work into school, work into dance, work into life.

but lies won't always save you.

sometimes lies are your downfall.

sometimes happiness isn't as close as you think.