I wish I knew you were hurting
Seeing you laying at deaths door
Just a tiny shell of the person used to be
What happened inside that made you give up on the outside
How could we have been there more for you
How could I have played a part in helping you stay
I wish I knew you were hurting
Everyone hurts and is going through something in this world
Some hurting more than others
Some feel hurt over little things that we make big
I myself can admit that I have been guilty of that
Some make small of Big problems
Because they don't want others to be able to see their pain
They smile and pretend that life is great for them
And sometimes treat real life like social media by only showing others the happy pictures and rarely revealing the painful moments they encounter
Did you think your burdens were too much for us to carry
I wish I knew you were hurting
I wish I knew to tell you how much and how powerfully you are loved by so many
I wish I could have told you how much you as a person provided impact in so many lives
You were so much more special than you knew
Your heart on your sleeve
Your kindness and humor
Your great love for your son
You found joy in holiday events around the city
Your sunglasses were your best friend
but then again so were taking pictures
and memorializing good times with great friends
Now sadly we all have to say our goodbyes
But we get to hold on to our happiest memories of you
I don't want to hold on to the pain
I wish I knew you were hurting
We wish we could have been there for you
To encourage you to keep fighting
To keep spreading that beautiful spirit of joy among other people
We are now all hurting
When we see and smell fresh Eucalyptus we will think of you
When lavender blooms each season or appears in a bouquet of flowers we will think of you
Whenever we see a bamboo tree
Or fresh grill marks on a healthy meal
And whenever a fresh new Jordan hits the market place
We will think of you
I hope you're no longer hurting
I hope you no longer feel any pain or heartache
You are now at peace
The angels will comfort you and dry your tears
Rest in heaven dear friend, dear mom, dear sister, dear daughter
And know our love for you is internal .
Written by Dereasa Daniels
In Loving memory of Nova ❤️