Heading to that dark place
I'm Spiraling into that dark place again.
Where do I go, what do I do.
Same Shit Different day.
Theres a voice in my head thats telling me to go home, what for?
To my family Im a breed apart.
To my wife I'm just there, a room mate, she says she loves me.
I know shes not physically attracted to me.
Always some reason, and I wind up masturbating in the shower again.
There was a time where we couldn't keep our hands off of each other.
Does she want me, or the figment of my soul that once was.
Im going in circles, just a dumb country boy in the big city.
The constant noise drowning out the voices in my head.
Making me bland and flaccid.
Too chicken shit to make a decision either way, watching every thing fall apart, and swirl down the bowl.
The pain of staying is as great as the pain of leaving
Where do I go, what do I do.
Same Shit Different day.
Theres a voice in my head thats telling me
to go home, what for?
Some one once said " No matter where you go there you are".
I Feel overwhelmed, with no release at all.
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