10/22 - My Birthday

I did it y'all. I survived another year. It's my birthday today :)

If you told me from 2 years ago that I was finally living instead of surviving, I would've laughed at your face.

Funny how one year could change me entirely.

Back then, I was comforted by the fact that tomorrow isn't always promised. Now, I'm excited to see what will happen the next day every day! I'm grateful that I get to wake up breathing fresh air every day. I'm grateful that I'm here. And alive. Even though I'm alone most of the time, I'm grateful that I have me. I have my own back. I know I can trust myself in everything. 2022 me would laugh at me for saying this. It's such a reliving feeling, knowing that this year was definitely, undeniably better than last year. This is proof that things do get better.

Just because it's taking time, doesn't mean it'll never happen.

I'm finally learning how to be excited for my birthday again. For once in 2 years, birthdays finally bring joy to my life again. And I hope it goes the same for Christmas.

I survived yet another year. But I'm not gonna spend my entire life just surviving and getting through the day. Now it was time to learn how to live again.

- 10/22, 12:18 AM