“Letter Unsent: For You a Thousand Times Over, Hassan”

My beloved Hassan, Assalamualaikum. After years of denial | returned to Kabul only to know that death chose you before me. I came back to where I left and you left a part of you for me. I don't know if l could ever amass the courage to choose to stand in front of you right after i left you in a war, around and within. Sohrab has your eyes, he has let my guilt dissipate a bit and here,now I see the war is far from over. God chose you for me ..the brave for the cOward. If there exists a place where I could hold you warm and tight for one last time, a place where you never meet war just know i want to belong there. If you ever comne back l'd read this out for you, over kebabs out in the pomegranate field. f you ever come back we'd make it to "Hassan and Amir -Sultans of Kabul". We'll make the kites fly higher nonchalantly, and let them go to places we don't know exists and this time I'Il bring them back for you..".For you a thousand times over, Hassan."...i wrote this as an extended version a letter Hassan would never receive. 2231