First Day Of Healing

Nothing but the clothes on my back. No home to go back to. Hours away from what I knew. Everyone who was there was in a similar position. We wanted to help ourselves. We needed to heal and we were making the decision to find the help we desperately needed. Eyes were always on me. Every fifteen minutes, someone would look in on me. Taking control of your life and then relinquishing that control to those who want to help you is a specific kind of vulnerability. It can calm the brain and put it in fight or flight mode. Your safety and healing were the first priority. The healing had to start with you. People could tell you how to help yourself, but you have to take that first big step to start on healing yourself. It does give back your control and lets you find yourself in safety. You learn how to live with yourself and how to live with the rest of the world. They tell you how it is, but it is up to you to understand when to let go of who or what hurts you. You can forgive people but it doesn't mean they have earned a place in your life. This is the hard part about being human, living. With yourself, with others. But always remember to put yourself first when it comes to your boundaries. Nobody has the right to mess with your protections and still have the right to being a part of your life.