Numb

My head is filled with a million thoughts,

I am so far from being caught.

My heart is void and numb

the pain of being different has become.

I am mocked each day by my family,

they do not like me anymore,

ever since I started to actually be me,

and control my life.

I wonder how I can go back to who they want

when I am numb.

My emotions are so far away

I cannot seem to feel today.

I am in a state of nothingness,

where I feel no happiness.

I feel so numb inside,

I just want to run and hide.

I don't know how to escape

this feeling of numbness and hate.

I am tired of being numb,

I just want to feel something.

I want to feel alive and free,

to be able to be me.