Not eccentric, but different
Loud, but invisible
Everywhere but nowhere
The beast inside me escapes my grasp
And you were the unfortunate soul to see it
Fear encases, growing inside
As I wonder what you'll think
Of the true me
Never understood how others couldn't see
Restricted and confined
Clouded by judgement
Until they open their eyes
But are you willing to see?
See my unique power
The folds inside my mind, happy and free
And unseen long hours
Ink smudged across the creases
Worn-down but still young hands
Stanzas written in pieces
That I can understand
Filled if you look closely
But nothing if you don't
Despite this, you've been by my side
Since the start
Or are you one of them,
Who's words sputter into my ears
I'm forced to succumb
They slowly remove it, as my peers
Can only see why it's dumb
They crumple and tear the papers
That I still long to remember
A thousand needles
Pricking my every move
All these peoples
Never approve
Crowded around, pairs of eyes that gossip
But what could I possibly do
A broken engine;
The gears in my head slow to a stop
Looks but no interventions
As they wish that my art will flop
They'll never think about their action
But I don't know why I've lost
Journals abandoned, no way to trace
The voices that's been removing
My hard work, I can't see my magical place
Dimmed and not able to prove
What's behind a phrase
"Why are you still here with me?"
The waning crescent is dark, but
I keep trying to take flight
And you still help me be
A small sliver of light
That maybe, someone can still see
I'll show you my work in a year
We'll never be split
Old times will change, if you are still here
And I hope you're willing to see it
Entry into challenge "Rising Prosers Soiree # 2 : Numb" @ChrisSadhill