1/27/2018- Journal Entry

Remember when you first stole?

A hummingbird for a heart

You shook.

Hands slick with sweat.

You’ve never known a fear this real.

How it invigorated you.

The chance of deception,

the price of pain.

You’ve known both.

Doubly aching for a penance

you know you cannot pay.

Remember who you stole from?

Your eyes twitch in annoyance.

Guilt was never your strong suit.

There are some hurts too deep to carry.

You know this deep down.

Past your plastic smile,

you chafe from the facade

you’ve presented the world for so long.

You don’t even know what it means to smile for real.

But you remember me.

I know you do.

You remember.

And everyday

I pray to forget.