Housefly

You said sorry…

Finally after weeks of treading through your lies like I was on some mystic safari.

Such a short word.

Just like that my feelings expected to change, be simply transferred.

Because you fessed up to lies I’d already caught you in.

And now your consequences you pretend to humbly take on the chin.

Because of that you’re the bigger man.

Because of my resistance, I’m the smaller woman.

But things went against your game plan.

They might believe you, trust in you.

But I see your wheels turning.

I’ve always seen right through you.

You said you’re sorry.

With tears in your eyes.

Confessions.

Said we were worth more than all your worldly possessions.

And honestly that was concerning.

you expected to see in my eyes tears, starry.

My trust in you, downsize.

I see through you, disguise.

No more, compromise.

I’ll beat you every time despite my pint-size.

And in the end I’ll be the one who drives you to the edgewise.

your end I’ll authorize.

For now though I’m stuck reading between the lies of your innocent sounding apologies.

Every word you say I now analyze.

I’m sitting with a Swatch, swatting you away like a swarm of house flies.

Confess.

You said you can’t, those memories left repressed.

I acquiesce.

I’ve already labeled you;adulteress.

But I forgot you said you’re sorry.

That word.

You said it slurred.

Sorry; the start of erasing of past sins.

Sorry I’m supposed to forget your sins.

If I don’t I’m the dilemma.

The greatest sin not to forgive and forget; send me to Gehenna.

So your notes; every apology I keep in my nightstand.

Always on hand.

You say this time is different.

To your words I’m ignorant.

Despite sitting across from you with my legs, folded and a smile on my face.

You hardly know who you’ve crossed.

This time is different .

But not because you say so, but because I’m a different me.

House fly you swarm over carcasses you’ve never earned.

It’s the only way you know how to survive. Of that, I’m unconcerned.

Housefly.

I see you in my sights.

Turn down the lights.

Remember?

You promised it was supposed to be different this time?

Housefly.

I waited for the change, gave you ten thousand chances.

Waited, all the way to December.

You made excuses said it was the circumstances.

But it’s my turn to sin.

I’ve kept your secrets in.

I’ve been a subordinate you’ve been the kingpin.

you’ve underestimated me.

To you I’m weak.

Housefly.

You’re in my line of sight.

Swat.

bullseye.

You’ve lost the fight it’s that simple black and white.