Right Now

I’m thinking

So many things on my mind like

I wanna go outside right now

Gaze at the stars

But I can’t

It’s too late

But if I wait

Then it’ll be morning

How do I stop things from being too late when I can

Do nothing but watch

And think

I’m staying

Staying up

Fingers on the keys

Shooting the breeze

Talking into the wind

In my mind

Quietly thinking of what is

And what has been

What could’ve been

Just a butterfly flitting in the air

A random thought

Turns into a string of curiosity

And I think

Of what could be

It’s like

The magic string

Rolling through my thoughts

So I keep on

I think

I’m knowing

That I know nothing

And that all I can do

Is be humble, praying

That I know

Where to go

When I’m stumbling

In the dark unsureness

Of my future

Like where is the lightswitch

I can’t find it

But that darkest valley

Can be lifted

So there’s no use in worrying

About that part of my life

That hasn’t yet been carved into my brain like

A sculpture of sureness.

So many things on my mind like

I wanna know my life right now

But I’m thinking

And watching

Waiting and knowing

Everything will be right

Now

Go to bed.