CDMX

I thought memories lasted forever. That’s what everyone told me. They last until your last dying breath. They’re with you anywhere you go. But they’re not. They were wrong, because I can’t really remember you. How could someone I love so much just disappear from my mind like that? Why is it that when I think back to us only three of the millions of things we did come to mind? Why is it so empty up there? Why can’t I remember? What is wrong with me? I look back to the photos of you and I see you there but I can’t see the rest of the moment. I see your beautiful face but your voice is slipping away from me slowly. All I have are tangible memories, but not any memory memories.

I want them back. I want the 180 days worth of memories installed back into my brain. I’m slowly forgetting you and I can’t. I can’t forget one of the best people I’ve ever met. If I had known this would’ve happened, I would’ve done anything to prevent it - I’d even go to CDMX with you, just to keep you there, always fresh in my mind and that way, I’d never forget you. But I didn’t. And now, we’re so far and I hear you in the distance but I can’t see you anywhere and I’m trying so hard to follow your voice but it’s like you keep running away from me and my efforts are futile because soon you’ll be too far gone.