realizing that your lover was loosing feelings for you was the worse feeling you could ever have. someone you put your all into. someone you put your love and the rest of your happiness with. the thing is..it was different for me. i had been hurt so many times that it hurt but not like how it should have. im used to being the heart breaker..not the heartbroken.
i sat in class next to my boyfriend and we did our work together. i looked at him after i finished my work and i took his hand into mine and smiled. "soo" i said with a smile. he looked at me and slithered his hand out of mine and put an eyebrow up, "uhm so?" i looked at what he just did and felt confused. he never did that..
when we were in 7th period together i walked over to him and his friend sat next to him..his female friend. i looked at her and she grabbed at his arm and smiled and laughed and joked. he smiled and laughed with her. i walked away and sat by myself and over thought. when the bell rang i looked up and they...they were walking out together and he was walking her to her next class. no where near his class. mine was right next to his.
when we sat at lunch...well we didint i walked up behind him and he was screenshot pictures of her from her Instagram. this is getting frustrating..if he didint want me then just tell me.
honestly while i write this i watch my boyfriend whos losing feelings for me sit with the same girl..and take pictures with her. i choke on my tears and i bite my tongue. i dont want to lose him but if this is going to happen im going to let it happen. ill find a way to break it off. oh well. it was fun while it lasted. even if we did date for 7 months. my longest real relationship. my longest online relationship was 10 months. i want that back..i want my old boyfriend back. we were just to busy and it just wasint going to work. oh well.