Today

My toxic father follows me through my life.

His evil seeps into every pore of my existence.

I cannot eradicate his stench no matter how hard I scrub and scrape and run.

You want someone to love, someone to love you but he shows up to hate you and break you down and tear apart your soul in the skins of someone else.

Everytime, you tell yourself it will be different but underneath the mask it's all the fucking same.

I hate you until the earth incinerates and there is nothing left.

I hate your lies and your teeth grinding into the back of my skull; your poison in everything. There is nothing left that is free of your cold grasp.

The fake smiles. See, look. Everything is fine. Don't blink twice. 100. 1000 he will never die.

And I will keep writing shity poems, hoping my hate will curse him with ill fortune and praying to gods that probably don't exist that he will die soon.