Pest (1/2)
Sorry, I didn't mean that
Passed you a note instead
You're too quiet, something's off
Every action, carefully painted in red
Head turns away but I hear your scoff
Sorry, I didn't mean that
Gave me a look
No words between us
Oops, I misunderstood
Didn't mean to make a fuss
Sorry, I didn't mean that
I thought this was the time
Foreign to the signals you sent me
Can I rewrite that line?
Please, neither of us should leave
Seconds swept past even faster
Whirlwinds through my mind
Lost more than I could muster
You're going to leave me behind?
It happened in a second
Broke out of your cage
Are you discontent?
Don't act, this isn't a stage
Saying you were fine
Just to trap yourself again
Please give me a good sign
Show me you, honest & unrestrained
Before, I missed the moment
Yet here I was-
Hours passed like seconds,
Quick, feels like a blur
Another added to my list of mismanagements
Rushed out along the city's stirr
Didn't mean to be late
Said it was the traffic
My actions worsening your state
Guilty, mind full of panic
Only after you insulted me
Have I stopped being "a chore"
Only after silence pushed us apart
Have I started mending more than ever before
Only after you distanced
Have I deciphered what went wrong
Only after your words grew tainted with lies
Did I learn it won't last long
Only after the ruins of us started to weather down
Did I say nothing, unable to assert
Only after it was over
Did I see us start to hurt
Outstretched, barely missing by a hair
Guess you already forgot
Don't try to repair
What we've lost
Found out way too slow
Both of us, full of sorrow
Can't move on but forced to go
Didn't mean to be cargo
Too late, churning too fast
Stumbling, revolting words strewn together
This- my first, will be my last
Unreplaceable, nothing will ever be better