Self destruction

Always on the outside, always looking in.

Living with but separate.

Never feeling connected, never apart of anything.

Trying to find sense.

Sometimes there's a feeling of acceptance but it never lasts for long.

Always feeling excluded, always isolating.

Living in social fear.

Never taking chances, never drawing attention.

Pretending not to care.

Sometimes bravery comes, but it never stays.

Afraid to face the day, worrying about every detail, life a constant prison. Fear to strong to ever be normal so you live a life of isolation and watch everyone live the life you want as you watch from the outside, too petrified to try.