Mama

Baby, sometimes a person has been sad inside for so long that they do crazy things to not feel how sad they are.

You know whenever you have a bug bite, you usually scratch it and scratch it ’til it bleeds, because scratching it feels better than letting it just itch? Even though it takes longer to heal when you scratch it up like that. That’s what is happening in your mama’s mind. She thinks making a big ol’ mess feels better than just letting her feelings go.

And your mama is sick, baby girl. And she hurts people, and that is not okay, and it really makes her more sad.

And baby, I promise your mama loves you, she just doesn’t know how to show it. I promise you never did anything to make her stop loving you. She is just really, really sad inside. Your mama thinks feeling angry and hurt is better than feeling sad. She will regret it in time. She’ll see what she’s missing.

But right now, let’s have some supper and then Grandpa will read you the story about the little bear and the blueberries. Mama will be home soon.