If I were to mention

Each time the thoughts of you

overtake me, like a sudden cloud

enclosing the day in a bleak shroud

When I see an old couple, hand in hand

walking, in the evening and I remember

the solidity of your hands in mine,

finger to finger intertwined

a sudden miracle, the weight of your hand

Every moment I live without you carries our echo

I am not whole, without you, anymore

a nonhealing ulcer, incurable at my core

that swallows the bone and eats the marrow, asks for more

Long nights I miss you,

your warm body in the safety of our bed

how I loved when you sighed

and I held you when you cried

Suddenly I became a maker and mender of all things

At supper, the empty table torments me

wine, a meal of paper too dull to taste

trying to forget those days, we ate

elbow to elbow from the same plate

I remember your voice, and the way my heart

would skip beats like a broken record

when you looked at me

with all the light I no longer see

Your heart was my candle, love

I remember your smile, and your glance like the sun

burning me after a few moments

I'd have to look away, Perihelion

You used to sand down the broken edges of me

You used to put me together

Tell me that I was loved.

Tell me that I was enough.

Devastation at the airport

the immensity of the loss

worse than gravity,

impossible how

could I ever walk away?