Do you feel anything?

I feel. I don't know how I feel. A little empty, a little too full, a little sad, a little happy, a little too much, or not enough. In a word, I'm gray. I'm never gray. I'm black or white. But gray... never. I experience too much or not enough, I laugh too much or cry too much, I feel too much or feel nothing. There's no middle ground for me. Half-measures, I don't know that rule. I give everything or I give nothing. Isn't that normal? I don't know. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't. I always love too much, maybe not. I always love too much when I love yes, but I don't love easily. Interesting questions. Can I develop? No. Why not? Because I don't know what I'm talking about, that's all. It's a subject lost at the back of my mind. I don't want to be understood, I don't want to understand. It's something that can't be understood or explained. It's just me. Do you understand? Maybe not. Do I understand? Less much.