Lights out

Most of you will think I was just an irrational teenager who knew nothing about life therefore I shouldn't have taken my own, but your wrong. Most of you think that I was happy and healthy and popular, but most of you would be wrong about that too. You saw my smiling face and thought nothing of what I was actually feeling, you believed the facade of confidence that I used as my shield. None of you really knew me, you just assumed you knew me...you assumed that just because I didn't tell you anything it meant I was fine. You didn't know that I cried myself to sleep thinking about the expectations of those around me, expectations I could never live up to, the fear of failing...of falling. You thought I was a dreamer when you caught me staring into space, yah I was dreamer until I realized dreams don't come true, people disappoint you, hope doesn't make things come true, the day may end but the pain never stops, and people fall... They fall so far they can't get back, so far they can't crawl away from the demons that pull them back down, so far down that everything is just black. I don't want to live in the dark anymore. So you may not understand it, but this is my farewell