This isn't a suicide letter mom I promise. Trust me your loving daughter would never scandalise you like that. I promise I didn't know my cut was infected. I had no idea that rubbing dirt all in my wound would cause my body to go into septic shock. I for sure didn't realise that putting the same band aid with just a little more tape would speed up the process. Still this isn't a suicide letter. I just thought I could give you some advice before you plan out everything. Please play Donna Summer at my funeral. I know I wasn't born in the seventies and Hot Stuff usually isn't the choice song when laying your oldest and only daughter to rest but trust me it will be epic. I hope I saved you all financially. Alan will be going off to college soon and Cannons ADHD medicine is becoming too expensive so now at least you don't have to worry about my poor money managing coming to bite you in the ass. I really loved you. Isn't it sad that at my age you are the only person who I know for sure that I loved. I think I loved my cat but I had to get rid of him after three months so maybe not. And I could have loved Zachoree if I only would have told him how I felt before he met Mary Ann and I moved off. Honestly this kind of is a suicide note. I don't want to inconvenience you but maybe not stress out so much. Heck know maybe with only three kids, life will get a little easier. 

P.S. Hey at least I'm not bored now.