Why Helena has her roots in me

Helena is my mouthpiece to voice my opinions in a lot of things from "Every single woman that is remembered in history found a way to contort a man's system to suit her needs" to just being an outlet for my sarcasm. Little secret, the darker story ideas I come up with tend to have their roots in Mountain Dew, 3 AM speed typing, and Mr. Nightmare videos on YouTube. But her relationship with Coleman has it's roots scattered in my personal history. Her "I don't hate you, I hate the idea of you" line is something that I've used in my personal life, along with a lot of other elements of her love life. Corinne's personality is a mix of my three best friends, which includes her pushing Helena towards Coleman in the beginning of the book.