Prayer.

Despite my atheistic views, I have prayed more in the last couple of years than I have in my entire life. Maybe not to a god, but for the same purposes. To be saved, helped, fixed, to be granted the strength I need to pull myself out of this, to be forgiven. And even if I don't expect an answer, I can respect those who do. If I could make myself believe in a force more powerful than this earth, I would do it in a heartbeat. Yet, I know I will never be endowed with the strength and courage I desire, unless I begin to realize it is already within myself. And maybe that's who I'm really trying to reach when I pray: myself.