My not so lovely love story.
It was the fourteenth of February, commonly referred to as valentine's day. Joseph and I had been having a lot of issues these previous months and so today he came by to my apartment. I won't lie I was very surprised to see him, there was also this weird feeling I was having inside, were they butterflies? I couldn't tell. Ever since I caught Joseph cheating I have felt nothing but reproach anger and regret towards him - towards us. But he being here today meant a lot to me, it meant he still cared, it meant he hadn't gotten over me, at least that's what I thought but it still left me with a sense of hope.
Now all this while I've been so caught up in my thoughts I hadn't realised he had moved to stand right in front of me. I snapped back to reality when he put his big hands on my chin and lifted up my head so he could look into my eyes, I stared back not standing down into those beautiful electric eyes, those set that shone light in all my darkness, those eyes that made me do things I shouldn't do, those eyes that made me crave more and more of Joseph. We spent about 15 minutes just looking into each other until finally Joseph broke the silence with a fake cough which caused me to curse under my breath not wanting it to end.
He spoke up and said "Desiree I made plans tonight for us" , those words came like a shock to me so I replied saying "you made plans for us I don't think there's anything like us anymore, us left when you left and I'll prefer it stayed that way, things have been going on well without us" - I lied but I didn't just stop there "maybe you should have put us into consideration before you did those sneaky things you did". I could see the hurt in his eyes but there was something else I saw - determination? you have to be kidding me. He spoke up once again and said "let's just forget about all our problems for tonight, let's put every other thing behind us and make this night about us - you and I" I couldn't comprehend the words he just said, did he just say to let all our problems go? for tonight then what happens in the morning? I was really confused, a part of me wanted to yell the hell at him and curse till he disappears but then to my greatest surprise I found myself nodding at his request.
He stretched out his hands towards me and I took it. We walked side by side towards the beach, it was real chilly outside but I didn't want to be anywhere but here, with him. I didn't even know how long we'd walked, it was like the more we walked the darker it became but his melodious tunes kept me oblivious to any other thoughts.
Every thing was going great until he stopped causing me to stop too, I looked at him with confusion in my eyes but he remained unflinching so I asked "why did you stop?" He stared at me for a couple of minutes before finally saying "you are nothing but a back stabbing narcissistic eaves dropping maniac, I regret ever knowing and failing in love with you, you made everything that I had ever worked for crash and now you had the guts to say our relationship failed because of me? you were the cause to every problem we had. I hate you so bad and you don't know how glad I am to do what I'm about to do " I just stood there not been able to decipher all he had said but he looked so serious while saying all those things, I really expected a burst of laughter to come after that but instead he picked me up from my waist and threw me out forcefully, I screamed wishing anyone would save me and then I fell into something soft "that was such a relief" , I said to myself but wait, I was sinking and I was sinking very fast. This was quick sand, I tried to drag myself out but I failed so I just thought to myself - if only I had listened to ma and never went out with this psychopath but his brother John this would never had happened and so now (saying more jovially) quick sand would put an end to me. So I took my last breathe and it was over.