Will Anyone Notice

Alone in the darkness

With my demons I stand

My body won’t move

The end feels at hand

Someone please tell me

What have I done?

Why am I here?

And why have they won?

This can’t be the life

That I wanted for me

My dreams have all died

But how can this be?

My heart feels so damn broken

I no longer feel whole

Shame fills my heart

And tears at my soul

It spread like a virus

It consumed what was me

And all that remains

Is the shell that I see

My drive is all lost

I have no more to give

I spend most of my time

Not wanting to live

There’s no reason to go on

With no hope in sight

The darkness is too strong

I’m too tired to fight

My tears no longer flow

I just cannot cry

Will anyone notice,

If I just said good-bye?

MichalAdkins)7/2018

Always Will Be

You tempted my life

I fell under your spell

The longer you stayed

The harder I fell

You were my rock

I was your prey

I needed your strength

To start off my day

My days became long

And I needed you more

You were right there

To warm up my core

You filled up my time

And took my troubles away

I gave you control

And you loved it that way

But I’ve opened my eyes

This must come to an end

I’ve seen what you are

You were never my friend

You were my crutch

When I couldn’t stand

Now I’m back on my feet

My future is planned

I want you no more

But I’ll never be free

Fore I am an addict

And always will be

MichalAdkins 07/2018