Sorry Bells
What wonders within my garbage pile
What garbage piles within my wonder
A rainbow splattered across the something
A bow of rain, a pillar of cats
Cats are just overgrown
Trying to scrape the sky of cotton
Scrape it, scrape, scrape away
A tiny taste of leaf in my eye
“Ouchie?!.” was my reply
“Yes” said he, wiping his tears, tipping his hat
I have fallen from high because of a cat
“Watch my dreams of you on the ceiling”
Dalmatians dream devoid of spots
I wonder if they cough in monotone
Just like my grandfather
Or a pocket full of beanie dots
No it’s done
Ramble and Repeat
A poem like this
Already exists
A rhythm about
Who controls the narrative
The hunter: a hero,
For the beast is slain
The hunter: a villain
For widowing the queen
The lion: a monster,
At least some would say
The lion: a brave father,
Protecting his family
Which is true? What is truth?
Is it ever right to kill?
Had the beast not died
I’m sure the hunter would be dinner
If I’m being honest
I have to write these words down
They’re suffocating my heart
I want to die, I want to escape
And yet the thing I want to escape
Is not worth dying for
But “how quick would it be
To walk in the ocean and drown”
Lord take these thoughts from me
Forgive me for giving them my ear
Be my refuge please
Hide me from the thief
Give me shelter in your wings
I’d understand if you told me no,
In the streets I’d rightfully sleep,
But you say “come. Come to me”.
So to you I will go.
Let me not look at the greatness of the Foe
But let me look at the sufficiency of the Lamb
Surely, You are my good, oh Lord.
Keep me from daydreaming of lesser things
Certainly of these things too dark to speak
You are my good
There is only You
You are my good
There is only You
All I am is sinful and weak
But You are my good
Your strength I shall seek
if i could explain
I have nothing left in my pockets
I could have sworn they had something
Now empty and ground down like
My grandmothers right hip socket
I wish I had never spent it all
But I find myself with hands reaching deep
Into pockets with moth eaten holes
Leave it at the door please
Don’t bring those words in here
And splatter them against my walls
You’re mistaken to think they come off easy
But I find myself scrubbing them away in my freetime
They don’t seem to fade
What a collage we have created
Lately I’m convinced
I could be a different woman
If I could just make myself small enough
To fit into that couch weaving
Maybe if I suck in my breath
Long enough and at the right angle
My mind may slip in between those threads
Leave this body dead
That kind of freaks me out
These thoughts arrive in an amazon package
Same day delivery
Too heavy for what this is about
I’m an escape artist as it turns out
I’m trying not to slip away
But You have to be the One to lasso me in
I’m crying out to my Father
I hope You know
I hope You see
I hope You’re collecting these
Did you leave the 99
Are you looking for me
Where is my Keeper, did You change?
Where is my Shepherd, did You leave?
It must be my grief Lord
To think the grip of Your right hand has gone weak
Forgive me in my doubt
Help me in my unbelief
I have no other hope
The Meridian
What can I bring to the meridian?
My feet won’t last long in these shoes
Saw a carpet stain that looked like you
Maybe, someday -
a soft covering for my knees
So I can crawl across that line
I have a leather wallet
Engraved with strange initials
I’m sure it’s fine
My skin has a stench and I cannot hide
See me or don’t,
But I don’t want to keep score
My book bag grows heavy
Without understanding
Waiting for something to
Wring out my pores
I would float in this puddle
In a paper boat
If It meant I could see the bottom
It must exist
The gray sky up top
Tells me that gray is many
Tells me that time is plenty
Tells me that I am heavy
Where can I go with these shoes?
What can I bring to the meridian?
I must remove my jacket at least
Stolen Car
side street
revisiting old wounds
i'm afraid there's something dead inside
open doors to air it out
raw stench
i can't hide
locked inside an 8x9 room
months behind but leaving soon
no escape for my words
no reason to believe
that putting them in order
would change anything
Help me Lord
the keys won't turn
stuck on the curb again