As your hands wrap around my arms

There goes the knife

As I sigh

The darkness creeps up as the shadows follows.

As the blood drips from my neck

Not a memory 

Just faded

Every day I try to scream but nothing comes out but tears.

Tears are my fears.

I will cry every day in my room feeling pain

The ones that I regret or the ones that hurt.

Blood on the floor so sore.

If I wish I could fix my life without a knife

Stuck thinking that I will be better but no

I’m so cold

without you im lost

so ashamed no one wants to care

so fragile no one can break the tears in my heart

so strong that my love is dared

My heart is ripped apart

regret sits in my hands like a broken glass

Im so broken that you're worth everything

I think about you every day feeling sad

regretting what we had

hurting my self so i can get rid of pain

I'm broken constantly because of you

I will cry everyday till I die

because of you i'm bleeding

Have you ever thought that you stabbed me

You gave me pain

You changed my life

I wish i can fix everything without a knife in my soul

Dont look down but theres the life you had

the one where you wish love isn't used for pain

I wanna scream but nothing comes out except tears and fears

help me be the person i want to be

change me to be happy

My heart feels like it’s torn in two

Why can't I just be with you?

Everyday another tear

Everyday a lot more fear

I want to hold you in my arms

I want to keep you safe from The pain

I want you to feel my pain

I can see the pain in your eyes from the hurt in your heart

and I'd really love to fix it just don't know where to start

Every time you let me in a little you shut me right back out

I hate that everyday you don't care

you shut my out and let me bleed

You let me die

Feeling ur pain is like a knife in my heart

you made me bleed

You want me to die

Everyday i will feel pain till i die

falling for you was a mistake

Instead i wish i died first

my tears all over me and fears on the floor

want to look in ur eyes and tell u i hate you

but no cause i'm too broke

too exhausted from the pain

I was scared to death I was losing my mind

I couldn’t open my eyes

I was pacing back and forth all night

I think I found light at the end

I couldn't find the truth

Im going under

I cant breath

Every day I try to scream but nothing comes out but tears

Tears that are my fears

I will cry everyday in my room feeling pain

The ones that I regret or the ones that hurt

If I wish I could fix my life without a knife

Stuck thinking that I will be better without you

So ashamed no one can bare to look

So fragile no one can break the tears in my heart

So strong that my love is dared

My heart is ripped apart

Regret sits in my hands like a broken glass

I’m broken that you're worth everything

Regretting what we had

Hurting myself so I can get rid of the pain

I'm broken constantly because of you

Because of you I'm bleeding

Have you ever thought that you stabbed me

You gave me pain

You changed my life

I wish I can fix everything without a knife in my soul

Don't look down but there's the life you had

The one where you wish love isn't used for pain

I wanna scream but nothing comes out except tears and fears

My heart feels like it’s torn in two

Why can't I just be with you?

Everyday another tear

Everyday a lot more fears

I want you to feel my pain

I hate that everyday you don't care

You shut me out

Feeling your pain is like a knife in my heart

Falling for you was a mistake

My tears all over me and fears on the floor

Want to look in YOUR eyes and tell you i hate you

too exhausted from the pain 

One day I will look back and think about my troubles.

You were the one who literally saved me from my worst.

I thank you for never giving up on me.

When everything crumbles

You were the first

To see

Memories keep playing in my head over and over

Reminding me how disappointed you were.

Reminding me how worried you were and confused.

Until I let myself lean on your shoulders

I wasn’t sure I would make it for sure

For the first time I wasn't amused.

You would ask me "how are you doing?"

I would say I'm fine

as tears start to form in my eyes

You know I wasn’t just fooling.

You knew it was a sign

As the tears shift to full on cry

The day I lost my friend you were there.

I didn’t know how to move on

I was hurting from in and out

As you stared

This was no fun

I never pout

You are the meaning of strength

at its highest peak.

You have courage

when the rest of us are weak.

You inspire me

to live for the now.

And to never give up

You have no idea

about the effect you've made

and with the lessons I've learned

my life's made a change.

Not just a change

But also a growth.

You help me through it all

coming to save me every time I fall

If I could say one word that wouldn't

tell it all

Thank you!

The day when I first bumped into you was the day I lost myself.

It was a place where I saw my better days.

When I first took a glimpse at your eyes.

I loved to hold you close

We were something.

We were inseparable

Nothing could stop us until you know something did.

It was war.

The day I have held her in my arms was the day I thought I could love strong.

Instead it turned into the worst war.

It was paradise until you met the darkness.

We met our eyes after the first dance.

The unknown was not what I expected.

I don’t regret knowing but I regret falling for the darkness.

The day we hung out and knew each other more.

More and more trust. More and more feelings.

You know a lot of history is hard to get over.

Push after push reality came to play.

The day I knew what was true

New years came to play.

Sleepover

My heart thumps thumps

Felt like someone punching me in the gut

Dance after dance

Kiss after kiss.

Guy after guy.

Seeing the reality in your eyes.

Hurt from inside and out

What to say or think

The day It got worse

Day after day

Things change

Lie after lie

push after push

fight after fight

Rumor after rumor

Things escalated

Feelings hurting more

Lost my self that day.

The day I came back to fix things was the day I never thought would hurt me more

Laughter and all the smiles gone

You ripped my heart out.

You pushed me more and more

Some days I hate you

Some days I still love you

When you threw away what you gave to me

The day you made everyway possible to hate me

The day you called

My hopes were high

Everything turned to calling me the worst thing

Everybody was right about her reality

The day I realized that you were not worth none of my time.

Breathing slowly

Putting my hands around my head

Processing this whole thing

Realizing my friend could be in some trouble

The issues of finding the reality

Begin to think of your honest opinion

Remembering your last words

What am I supposed to do?

You're gone.. She’s in the hospital

The memories sitting there

The regrets seep into my soul

Old memories drowning me

The lost of hope

Faith nearly gone

Do I just stand there?

Burning slowly

Deep thoughts

Blood splooging everywhere

I take a step back

You came to smash it all

What we got to lose

We came to be successful

One, Two, Three

Bamb, Bamb

In the black tucks

Two down

Bamb

three down

Screaming

Horror

Heart beats faster and faster

One, two, tick, tick,

“Everyone get down”

10 People down

Running

the terror

When You grab onto her hand

Notice that she got shot

What do I do

My heart pounds

The tears coming out

Grabbing onto my body and pulling me

The darkness inside pulling me into the deepness of her soul

Shaking

Scared of what might die inside

Walk around in circles

Gun in front of me

Stare at it for a moment

He comes over

Both hesitating to grab it

Screaming

Crying

We go after it

He grabs the gun

Bamb

next thing you know he’s down

dead

The horror

Done

She bleeding in my hands

I cry and suddenly had this feeling of loss

Fighting

Parents yelling

I cry

Shocked

The darkness grabs my soul

Something grabs me

My heart bleeding

Down on my knees

Stabbed

Soulless

Broken into many unknown pieces

You are the meaning of strength

at its highest peak.

You have courage

when the rest of us are weak.

You inspire me

to live for the now.

And to never give up

Because you don't know how.

I've learned from you

why family comes first.

it's because when you need them,

they're there when you hurt.

No matter the pain

It all hurts the same.

And family you can count on

to always remain.

When the road gets rocky

you seem to take each bump

and walk over them smoothly

hump after hump.

You have no idea

about the effect you've made

and with the lessons I've learned

my life's made a change.

Not just a change

But also a growth.

Saw those words slip out of my hands.

Slowly my heart rips apart.

Hold me down.

Sneaking out through my back bone.

Knock me out.

Saying you don't want more.

Watching me drown.

The demons coming out of my soul.

The feelings burns away.

I tried to hold these secrets inside me.

Colder than this hole.

Meaner than these demons.