You are one of them now

One of my many demons

But what did I expect?

I'm naive

I'm gullible

Of course you were gonna be one.

I should've learned the first time

I should've learned the second time

I should've learned the third time.

I should've learned this time

But I won't

There'll always be that emptiness.

The urge to search for hope

To search for happiness

I'm looking in the wrong places.

But they're the only places I know

I should've stopped

But I didn't.

I don't think I'll ever stop

I'll keep doing it

Until I die.

I'll keep getting used

Hurt, mistreated,

And mentally beaten.

I'll keep falling

I'll keep gaining these demons

Because honestly they'll never go.

I'm the one to blame

For all of this

For all of my pain and my errors.

I can't blame you

I can't blame them

Shit I can't blame the damn devil.

I've been getting demons

Over the years

Couldn't stop getting them.

Don't know why I seem to

Attract them

I always try to get rid of them.

Ha that'll never happen...

He was my first demon

They were my other demons

Hopefully you're the last

Of my many demons.

He... Ignites a flame within me

It's not good though

It makes me even more depressed.

When... He is near me

I can't help, but blame him

For being part of my downfall.

He... Knows what he did

I know what he did

We both know...

But I was stupid

I was naive

He will always haunt a part of this dark mind.

He will always have a place

Good or

Bad.

I can't forget him

I'll never forget him

He's one of my many demons.

He doesn't know

He's clueless

He's left a little broken girl behind.

I do know

That I've forgiven him

I'm just glad nothing got too far.

If it would've

I don't know what I would've done with myself

He will always be on my mind.

He will always be

In this cold broken

Heart of mine.

He'll always be a part of my hell

He ignites a fire within me

Nothing good, far from it.

I'll never give in again

I've built up walls

That no one can tear down.

Not even the good me

I'm broken

And HE doesn't even know that.

He will always be clueless

No matter what

I don't want him to know.

I don't want to give into him

Again

I thought he liked me.

But I was deathly wrong

He just wanted

Something to toy with.

I'll never forget

But he did forget

I wish I could forget like he did.

I must admit...

I miss his hugs

And his hands around my waist.

I miss saying he looked high

I miss the smell of his cologne

I miss everything about him.

Even though this was years ago

I'll never forget him

But HE will forget me...

He already has.

I'm the girl you see in the hallway

I'm the girl in the back of the class

I'm the one no one notices

I'm the quiet girl

That everyone seems to 

Forget who is even there

I'm the one that no one sees

I'm the girl that has depression

I'm the girl with social anxiety

I'm the girl that can't stop it

Stop the snowball effect

She's currently having 

I'm the girl that will one day break

I'm the girl who's almost not there

I'm the girl you'll soon forget

I'm the girl's name 

That you won't remember

It'll be like I never existed

I'm someone that's a no one.