It’s not easy, ain’t it? But you knew that already. You’ve heard it like a broken record in a silent bar in a ghost town which never existed. You knew it already.
When you heard about the meteor shower the other day. You wished to see it from the bottom of your heart. But you don’t have a heart, do you? That’s what your father says. And you convince yourself there was no meteor shower too.
Things which we see, we know that they exist. You see your friends happy, you see them laugh. But what about you? The realest you you’ve seen is after all only a reflection. Are you happy? Your photographs say you are.
I heard you got into a fight last night. It wasn’t easy, he says, beating up someone bigger than him. But you knew that already. You know everything already. Nothing is ever easy and you pretend that he doesn’t bleed. He’s invincible after all.
And under the stars that don't exist, you convince yourself that you're happy.
A Garden Out There
I knew not the sound of laughter
Knew not from the pain
Wondered when the sun would shine
But prayed that it would rain
I saw the clouds move that day
Marching along the lines
Breathing in the flowers
Forgotten across the times
But they said there were no flowers
It was only in my mind
No patch of green in my garden
Nothing there to find
Some said that I was dreaming
Some only called me dumb
Said that being stuck all day
Made my thinking numb
I told them it was green before
And I say that it’s still green
There’s still a garden out there
I’m not living in a dream
Close your eyes gently they say
And pray for the rains
To come water your garden
While you slip away from the pain