I'm not stubborn, I just do what I please.

I'm not selfish, it's just all about me.

I may seem heartless, but I once cared a lot.

I'm not crazy, my nerves are just shot.

I'm not picky, I just know what I'm worth.

I'm not mean, but yes I got hurt.

I'm not flawless, though on the outside I look fine.

You can't see that I'm broken, but I'm crushed deep inside.

You look at me & judge, but you don't know me.

I'm this & I'm that, but I'm not what you see.

God brought me here, just the same as he did you.

A little girl, who did not have a clue.

Someone messed me up, & that's when it hit.

I'm no longer a little girl,

Oh yeah! I'M THAT !

I love the way you look at me.

It's like a dream come true.

Why can't you see that it's just me.

I am always here for you.

I love the way you are & how you make me feel inside.

But when you look at me, in the eyes.

I know that it's all lies.

You lie to me, when you say you love me.

Oh how you stop & stare.

I wish that you were looking right at me, but you really don't seem to care.

I know it's all lies, still I stay & I don't know why.

Probably because I can't live without you.

Without you I will die.

I love the way you lie, though it's not where you wanna be.

But just to be wherever you are, is good enough for me.

You drive me crazy.

You wreck my brain.

We fuss & fight & I wouldn't change a thing.

The family get togethers are crazy as hell.

We are a family, but it's hard to tell.

I tell you to shut up, while you're yelling at me.

People stop & stare, like we're all crazy.

Okay we might be, but here's how it goes.

You mess with my family & this you should know.

We may not always get along, I'm right, you're wrong, I'm pretty, you're not, you're weak, & I'm strong.

We'll go back & forth about it all night.

Behind all the yelling, you never would see.

This is my family & they care about me.

So look all you want to, but there is this thing.

You mess with me, & you get the whole gang.

Before you take a life, please just think again.

How much their family needs them.

How it's a beginning to an end.

Just think about the parents, their sister, and their brother.

How they never said goodbye or how they didn't get to hug her.

Think about their last moments.

All broken & very scared.

How much they wish their family, was holding them right there.

How excited that they were, because recess was on it's way.

How they would never make it home or even get to play.

How can you take a little life, I wouldn't have a clue.

NO! You have no right playing god, it wasn't your place to do.

I feel like i am drowning & I can't come up for air.

You wouldn't think I am suffering, but that don't mean it isn't there.

This is a silent killer, you wouldn't even guess.

I look fine on the surface, but deep down I am a mess.

People tell you it will be okay, but they have not one idea.

That the pain that's eating at you, you do not want to live.

You need to do a lot, but you do nothing not at all.

Every time you're on your feet & you're feeling like you'll fall.

I'll tell about this killer, so you will know the signs.

When you see someone in trouble, make sure to be kind.

They go through this everyday & it's not easy as you can see.

This silent little killer, is called ANXIETY.

The world is crashing around us.

I cannot barely hardly breathe.

Are people going crazy.. or is it only me.

I used to look at the place as my safe haven & my home.

As I take a look around me, something is going very wrong.

God do you hear us crying? Do you see that we're falling apart?

Can you wrap your arms around us? Can you mend our broken hearts?

We really need you down here.

We are not sure what to do.

Can you peice the world back together? Almost as if were new.

I know we need some work done, down here on this Earth.

Don't give up on us, not just yet.

We're getting ready to prove our worth.

I will never go astray, I promise to lift you up.

I will never make you feel, that you are not enough.

I grew up in a life of very many doubts.

The doubts were not mine though, & I could never figure it out.

God gives you a mother to pick you up when you fall down.

Not one to be the reason that you are lying on the ground.

When you came into my life, I made a vow, to cherish you no matter what.

I promise not to be like my mother & treat you like she does.

She has always found a way, to make me feel like I'm a problem.

Which no I am not perfect, & scars? Yeah I got them.

I love you my precious child, I do very much.

My heart belongs to you & I hope it is enough.

If you start to believe, that I'm better off without you.

Don't you fret my child, because my life is all about you.

All of me, belongs to only you.

You had me very suddenly, the moment we said I do.

I knew you for a long time, but never really seen.

The man that was right in front of me or what we would come to be.

You were just a little boy, three years younger than me.

That I never truly realized, you'd be the man of my dreams.

I didn't believe in fairy tales, now we have our very own.

How did we get so lucky, to be living our love song.

You came at the right moment, & treated my daughter like your own.

Then we had another daughter, that finally completed our home.

Almost nine years later & still going very strong.

Now I finally see what I never could believe.

That God put you here, & he made you just for me.

I was lost, but now I'm found.

That wouldn't even be possible, if you weren't around.

You took by surprise, went & stole my heart.

I couldn't live without you, it would tear my world apart.

Most people don't get this lucky, to be blessed like I have.

If I had to live without you, that would make me very sad.

So I'm gonna hold on tight to this & never let you go.

Because this life without you, would be over as we know.

I'm not where I wanna be. But I'm getting to where I'm going. I have lots of dreams as u can see. My heart just keeps on growing. Sometimes I stumble & fall flat on my face. Then get up & try again. But what kinda woman would I be. If I let the devil win. I'm going further each & everyday. But slowly at a time. I starting to lose all faith. But I'm not the losing kind. Suddenly I remember something. It's all so clear to see. I've been looking in all the wrong places. Cuz I'm already living my dream.