IF THIS IS ALL THAT'S LEFT FOR ME,

LYING IN A BED ALL DAY FIGHTING OFF THE DARKNESS,

THEN I DONT WANT TO HANG IN THERE ANYMORE

NOTHINGS LEFT AND IM LOSING MY GRIP ON MY SANITY AS I DIG MY NAILS INTO MY HEAD JUST TO FEEL SOMETHING OTHER THAN THIS SADNESS THAT SEEMS TO STRANGLE ME IN ITS GRIP

IF I KNEW HOW TO CHANGE THIS I THINK I WOULD BUT YOU DONT REALLY KNOW UNTIL YOURE IN THE SITUATION

I FEAR MY

SITUATION

WILL BE

THE

LAST

OF

ME

Sunlight's seeping from the room again

I'm about to be plunged into darkness again

Soon I'll be left alone with my thoughts again

Finally fighting off my demons again

As I struggle to hold on to the light again

I stare blankly at the wall again

While a storm rages in my head again

I don't know if I'll make it out again

I've had my eyes on you for awhile

And if I had my way

I'd have a little more of you on me

I've craved the wetness of your lips

And the smoothness of your skin

I'd say to trail a finger down your jawline would be a gift from the gods

But the look in your eyes would be the real miracle

a shit night you say?

well

i would have to disagree.

it’s just a normal night.

here again, all of us

the same stars

the same ubiquity.

but it’s not so bad.

there have been worse

much

MUCH

worse.

so raise that fucking chin of yours!

look up for once.

here we are, goddamn you!

all of us

in the gutter anyway

so we might as well enjoy the stars.