I didn't care

if being with her

would tarnish

my reputation

I knew who she was

what she's done

& the only sin I've seen

was the gossip

trying so hard

to shatter the love

we have

she would hold my hand

when I was sick

nurse me

as if I were a child

talked to the doctors

when she thought

I wasn't listening

but still

I smiled at

when I told her

I wasn't ready

to make her a orphan

just yet

it was always

a matter of faith

not in

the heavenly creatures

so many had spoken of

but in himself

& those dreams

he kept captive

in his heart

he had chased down Eros

in anger

he was tired

of losing in love

time after time

but Eros just laughed

& said the truth

right out loud

"ever think

it just might be you"

I listened

as the roll of thunder

danced over the hills

& the lighting swayed

across the sky

as if to remind me

I am earth bound

only my dreams

know how to fly

it wasn't

that I didn't care

to follow Alice

down the rabbit hole

but I just had

my suit pressed

& Alice

was just a tease

anyway

time was

that he had once feared

the plutonium bomb

would end all life

but recently

he discovered the land fill

& wondered

what was the rush

it was time

that would reveal

the silken fragility

of his soul

but it was her words

that would teach

the strength hidden

behind the quiet

of his soul's veil

it was in sharing himself

that he would discover

his greatest truth

he wasn't as broken

as he had thought

he had just been afraid

to smile

I remember

La Playa De Barceloneta

not as the place

where the ocean breeze

& plam trees danced

but where I learned to dive

off the giant stones

& into the sea

that I had grown

to love