Happenings

Have you changed or been set free......

is this the new you or a suppressed identity that on the brink of disaster emerged out of a sea of fire....

arms raised and feet barely touching the gravel...

but you hit the ground running!!! Relentlessly searching for something you had all along....

please don't conform...

it feels so good but you are evolving from a place of pain and moving at the speed of light...

I can't catch you & I'm afraid.....

breaking barriers but falling victim to catastrophe because to you it taste like victory...

winning and losing all at the same time.

They clipped your wings....

but you kept flying only this time you were coasting....

drifting....

you feel like your soaring...

until gravity sets in....

and somewhere between here and there you find yourself lower than when you started.

I'm sorry you had to find out this way....

I'm sorry that despair has shackled you.....

Im sorry your still not free....

The one moment in my life I don't turn on the tv......

I just sit and allow myself to exist in the solitude.

An occasional draft of wind sweeps the curtains from it resting place.

The clouds have nestled above my suburbia town......it's gray outside....but it's not.

I am as alone as I feel.

The quiet room blast empty creeks.

I think of the kids at school and wonder about dinner.

I imagine what it would be like if it were always this way,

I'm instantly sad.

As peaceful as this "alone" is.....I'm grateful this is temporary!

A relationship with an addict is allowing the most meaningful moments of your life be consumed by someone else's darkness.....remember, you do not owe it to them to save them. it's not your responsibility to battle their demons. Love them enough and mostly yourself enough to let go and be happy for you and no longer allow them to use you as there security blanket in whatever way.

Love can be unfortunate

The way a stranger can invade your heart without your permission.

The way all it takes is time to develop

no specifications or distinct traits.

It just happens when you least expect it.

You don't get to choose who you love,

there is something compelling in its mystery yet frightening and uneasy.

Love can create a masterpiece,

a lasting story

or it can create disaster and misplaced emotions.

It can be a dream or nightmare alike.

Love can twist you up

and when you look in the mirror you see the reflection of someone else.

You can lose yourself.....

or find yourself....

Feel abandoned or consumed.

Be unsure or most certain.

But Love is inevitable.

It is unavoidable like death.

It makes no sense,

yet it is clearly understood.

It is inexplicable,

yet has so many words.

Despite its paradox and enigma,

Embrace love, give it selflessly, seek love, love your first love until your last breath

and your last love until forever.

Be unique in love,

perfect your love.

Find love in all things and love will find its way to you.

-Jodie Marie 9/23/2014