"It's no big deal that's what they all say." I knew it was a big deal from the very beginning. They said it would never happen. It never had happened, not until sep, 17, 1996. The night before me and my brother lay on the cheap mattress. We were lucky to even have that. The last four years my family had been pore we had to live in an abandoned garage. My brother lay motionless and I curled up in a small ball to keep the heat. In less than five minutes my eyes were glued down. That night I dreamt about what it would be like in heaven. Everything was perfect I kind of wished I was there but, I wasn't ready to risk my life. When I was awoken to the sound of chickens that lived a few blocks away I looked over to the space next to me that lay empty. I stared that empty space I thought to myself where is my brother. I listened carefully and I heard the faint sound of crying I turned my head and my parents were crying into there palms. I looked at them and suddenly knew what had happened and I knew exactly how, why, and where he was now. I reached over to the stool and sipped the last of the tea that I had tried to save for a week. The tea had tasted so alive before today but now it was no more than a cup of tea it tasted bland my whole life now felt bland.