Secret Crush
Sitting amongst the audience, I heard this voice for the first time. Suddenly, a wave of quietness ran through the hall to hear the sound of his voice, mesmerizing and mellow. It was a college event but, I couldn't recognize the face. The lyrical voice and the beautiful face hypnotized everyone. I came to know he had joined recently in one of the departments. I wished to see him again and tell him how beautifully he sang that day. And, I did see him again few days later but, I stood dumbfounded, did not utter a single word. He looked handsome. I had several such encounters with him. Days passed, months too, and now my college days are over and he still is a complete stranger. Few days back, I gathered guts to send him a friend request on a social site. Yes, he accepted it. Never been able to text him though, due to the fear that he may not reply. He remains a stranger. I wish I can tell him how much I like him and perhaps, fallen for him. I wish someday he texts me and there be an exchange of words. Waiting for the miraculous day!
aNaToMy
Oh this horrific web of complicated structures
Has put on my mind bruises and ruptures
Even did He not think
And man was ready in just a blink
But a foolish man He made
Went to know the recipe laid
The ingredients on his own he named
And then he gamed
Was a tough task for this little mind
Each name is new every time I discover and I find
Nevertheless I try harder and harder to remember
Still in a deep slumber , today January, tomorrow December.
Agitated
A deep sea, a dense forest
Turbulence and turmoil in there
Yet appear in harmony the entities nest
Only the waves I can see, the rustling leaves I can hear
They surround me and babble
Not a single word I understand
In a swarm, still alone I travel
Searching for someone whose language I could comprehend
Its been a long time on this quest
Seems it will never end & this soul will be laid at rest.
Deep Desire
On this endless journey
I walk on the road
Appeared from the mists ahead
Towards me someone strode.
Portrayed enigma
Was different and unfathomable
Yet there was something
That was adorable.
To be there by my side
For so many miles
On this not so easy way
To be the reason for thousand smiles.
I treasure all those moments
Petty arguments, silly talks
The 'make you feel awkward' dinner dates
The 'always short of time' long walks.
Teasing you, pulling your leg
The victorious joy of quietening you
Then the unexpected turning of tables
Again looking for something new.
Forgetting things
Failed efforts to recall
Feeling embarassed
Why can't I remember it all!
Regardless of all my idiocies
You forgive, you tolerate
A person so wonderful
A friend so great.
With each step
The bond grows stronger
Heart desires and mind asks
Couldn't forever be longer?!!
Illusional Love
On the shattered glass I stand
Indifferent to myself
Don't feel the anguish, the pain
In so much distrust
Couldn't tell if it hurts
Then there's a slight sensation
On my fingers
Soon I realize someone is holding my hand
Numbness pased away and now I could feel
Healing the wounds
Melting this frozen heart
Detoxifying me
Changed the perception
For love, for life
Taught me there's more meaning to it
Love does exist
It can be selfless
It can be unconditional
It is not a dream, not a miracle
It is a blessing, it is bliss
Experiencing the wonders
I get lost in the maze
Standing on the soft grass
Now, even this 'feels' hurtful!
The Cry of Woe
They say I am brave I am strong
Do they know they are wrong?!
Shattered from the inside
Struggling each moment to hide
Swallowing on my tears
Wishing for someone to vanish my fears
Obscure future and faded memories
Lucidity clouded with worries
A pretence of indifference
Disguising my fragile emotional sense
Yearning for a wisp of light
Someday the dawn will break this night.
Next in the queue,
For the ride inevitable
The goosebumps, the emptiness
I already sense
Was it my turn yet?!
The ticket had my name
But, here I am
Unaware of the rules of the ineluctable game..
Fear, flashbacks and rage
Flooding my mind
I wish I really had killed u
And relished in contentment
Of being honored for the noble job
I did spare you
It turned on me
Being mocked for not doing the deed
Could have changed my world
Standing at the gunpoint
Waiting to feel my ears go deaf
Still Vengeful
Will slay you!