I write more than I speak
I am a socially awakard person. Therefore I am in love with Writing than Speaking. I struggle to find words that make up a conversation than a written sentence. I try not to speak much as I might hurt you through speaking than writing. Speaking has to be at the moment (I call it Instant Information) and on the spot which is difficult for me... I still could not fathom (and admire) NORMAL people who socialize. How fluent their information flows from their brains to their mouths and to their listeners. Yes, I tried to "improve" my social skills... But no matter how many books I read about being a normal sociable person, people around me call me a try-hard or pretending to be sociable which is frustrating. I have so much information in my head that wants to erupt out - writing is like a water tab, it enables me to control and filter the flow. So that is why I write (texting, emailing, writing, typing etc).
Writing
Writing has always been something I enjoy doing. I was picked on as a kid and found talking to people to be hard, so I wrote what I wanted to say. I would write stories and things I wanted to see happen or see stop.....and it just started from there.
I moved on to writing thoughts and stories based on those thoughts. When you don't have anyone to talk to, you talk to yourself. I wanted someone to hear me. Someone to listen, but no one did. I turned to music, which is something I love as much as writing. I now write about stories I get from a song or thought from a song.
A friend of mine asked me this same question, and it took me back to when I was pushed around. Back to the "Why do you (blah blah blah here)" questions. I really had to think about it. When you are alone, you think a lot. You think so much, you start to question why you are even here. You go insane almost. What better to do with the thoughts then to write them. No one needs to see them. No one needs to even know about them. It makes you feel like you belong. Like you matter. You write a story and that characters life is in your hands.
Im not the best writer, but that's not why I write. I write to speak my mind. I write because no one can control what I write. I write because the words are how I feel. I write to feel normal. Writing is that mental freedom. I can create a wonderful world where everyone is happy, but I can also create a world full of hate and destruction. There is no limit to what can be written. The only limit is yourself.
I write to get what is in my head out and clear my mind. To tell a story. To be heard.
Love Me Some Write
It is a calling is it not! Ya'll writers know you are drawn to the pen like a bug to the porch light. You are compelled to get it out! You know, someone out there needs it, loves it, wants it and keeps coming back for more. Writing (and of course reading) is a nutrient in the vitamin cabinet of our best lives. Writing can be likened to an awesome roll in the sack. You give and take and everybody involved ends up satisfied.
That is why I write!
