The Light I Hold
With every night I stay awake
To ruminate over our fate.
Looking back on the past
Wondering if I could have made us last.
But when these thoughts coincide
Is when my feelings can no longer hide.
You gave the warmth of words and hugs.
I felt the spark of love ignite.
To start this fragile light of mine;
Give it emotion it never knew;
Gave to me the knowledge
That the one I love is you.
You gave back this light that I wanted us to share,
And took another’s that you think has much more care.
You don't see my light and how you've made it so dim.
Only his light and your future with him.
I see how his light makes you smile,
And how I only kept your attention for awhile.
You once gave me emotion filled with glee,
But not hate and sorrow is all my mind can see.
Even with these thoughts of hate
For a person whom you wish to date,
I wish you the best of luck.
This light still loves you and the memories from the past.
But with every moment away,
I fear these feelings will not last.
Just don’t forget the light i've held so dear,
Because i'll be right here,
Even if his light disappears.
False
Lately this desire has led me to dread
That thoughts of love
Are lies put in my head.
That that in which I crave inside
Will only leave me left behind
Those that wish to deceive
“Our” is the word I say
Only to be left with echoes of lost love
That left my heart and pushed me down.
These sounds bring back the wounds,
But this pain will only last
Till the day I forget my past
Viewing those that forged emotion
All to sharpen their tongue reaps pity
From those who so helplessly fell for them.
I lay with sorrow till day break
For those that have harmed.
Sadness for those that will never feel
The touch of another's heart.
Eventually one will come along
To heal the broken parts, stained hearts, and corrupted thoughts.
Some may look down but hope will be strong
In fear of becoming those
Whom have done them wrong.
Until this person steals my gaze
And cherishes what others have left
I wont lose hope for better days.
Mask
Every morning wanting to free
From the masks put on to hide the real me.
Suffocating in a sea
Of thoughts others wish of me,
Poison lungs to a degree
Where masks provide solace.
So many to choose, hundreds to see.
How about the usual fake smile of glee?
Bending light to hide the shadow
Behind a safe translucent glow.
To make sure as not to show
The truth hidden beneath.
These masks deceive, and trick and bend
The truth, so I may make a friend.
Making friends with masks is no surprise.
But to keep a friend is why I keep using lies.