If I had a choice...
If I had a choice
Where would I be?
If I had a choice
Would you love me?
If I had a choice to go far away
If I had a choice could I stay?
If I had a choice
To dream and dream
If I had a choice
Would you let me be?
If I had a choice
To walk in the rain
If I had a choice
Could I do it all day?
If I had a choice
To scream and shout
If I had a choice
Could I let it all out?
If I had a choice
To walk naked and bare
If I had a choice
I wouldn’t care
If I had a choice
To cry tears of blood
If I had a choice
Would you clean it up?
If I had a choice
To be hurt inside
If I had a choice
Would you let me cry?
If I had a choice
To be happy and live
If I had a choice
To smile and grin
If I had a choice
To skip around
If I had a choice
To sing out loud
If I had a choice
To be left alone
If I had a choice
To moan and groan
If I had a choice
Wail and cry
If I had a choice
Would you let me die?
If I had a choice
To choose one of these things
If I had a choice…….
What would it be?
Who am I without love?
My heart is like a black hole
Love travels in and out.
The sadness eats at my soul
And I am forever tired and weary.
Wanting to do more but can't.
Wanting to be more but won't.
The desire to be
Is no more....
My heart is spent on trying.
I'm weak from all my worry.
My shoulders are tense and knotted
And my face aches from all the crying.
What should I do that hasn't been done?
What should I try next?
It seems as if I've done everything I can
But end up back in the same place.
Forever sad.
Forever hurt.
Forever crying.
My smile is a flat line.
And the color has drained from my face.
Life's smell is pungent and vile
Making me want to curl up in my chest.
You wonder why I'm morose?
You wonder why I'm hurting?
If you could stop for a minute and hear my pleas...
If you could just stop ignoring.
Maybe you'll see my tears
And hear my shrieks of pain.
Maybe you'll take the time to listen
And tell me you love me again.
But until then I'll be here
Until then I'll be waiting.
For you to give me the love I need
For you to help me stop hurting.
The choice is truly up to you
What more can I say or do?
As soon as you change your ways
The less likely I'll end up in my grave.
~Dejah Sibblies
Trapped inside a box
Trapped inside a box, I feel
Trapped inside a box.
There is no more room to feel
There is not room to love.
My heart is solid like a stone
It will not bend or break.
I'd rather keep myself closed off
Than love to hurt again.
I do not want to love
I'd rather not receive.
If I could stand back afar
I'd rather bleed and bleed.
Feeling has become so foreign
Love does not exist.
To be alone is best for me
To be alone... It fits.
To hurt crushes my inner being
To love is even worse.
I'd rather live inside a box
Than hurt and hurt an hurt.
~Dejah Sibblies