The end to this life of mine.
Today is the day I’m done.
Done with the pain and sorrow.
I wish I had more will to borrow.
I feel all the things I don’t want to feel.
My only regret is the fun we never had.
I’m sorry I couldn’t be stronger or held out a bit longer.
It’s an uphill battle and I’m under no impression it will plateau.
I’m saying goodbye and I wish you a great time.
You don’t know it’s here.
I can feel it near. Tomorrow is the day.
I will part ways, in hopes they fork back one day and all will be better.
I did my best. Can you say the same?
It’s for the best.
I failed this test.
There is nothing up there.
The many things to say and convey escape this brain.
The pen is eager but the vessel blank.
What can I say?
The emotions I could spew….Nothing, boo-hoo.
There’s gotta be a clue! Wish I had a dog like blue.
The fog has settled again. Oh well. Until next time, farewell.
CATS AND DEERES
I bust my ass to make ends meet.
Grease stained fingers turn a wrench to fix a big yellow monster.
“Repair it, tape it, get it to work!”
My back aches, my feet hurt and my Forman yells “get back to work!”
Hulk Hogan impersonating an operator.
He has a yellow crane, no name.
A super hero.
He can pick up a building all on his own.
He will have to be buried in that old machine.
Thoughts of you ran though my head.
That night that I went away.
The night was warm and my brain on fire.
I wouldn’t feed my desire.
I couldn’t go back, so all I could do was think.
To think of the feel of your heart beat under my hand is the best feeling of all.
The beat of it steady, slow and fast.
It always makes me fall.
Fall back into your web.
Web of lies that I hate.
Hate that rips my heart apart.
Apart like the pieces of my heart.
Heart that bleeds.
Bleeds and makes pools of tears.
Tears that’s mean nothing to you.
You don’t care.
This isn’t fair I can love you and you couldn’t care.
I want alcohol not to exist.
I want drugs to disappear.
I want something to shift, so the world cares a bit more of what’s real.
This world has gotten expensive. The more we make, makes the price of everything rise.
Some can’t even afford a bag of rice.
Instead of asking for more money let’s emphasize the drop in price.
I am ashamed to be killing our planet.
Industry is running it ragged.
It’s been over mined and the bits are all scattered.
Nothing left for the future to discover.
The hardest thing I ever did was walk away from you.
My heart was heavy, I couldn’t breathe next to you.
I hid how I felt when I would see you; I felt blue.
The cause of it all was jack,
He had a hand on your back, that lead you astray.
He made you mean.
Words cut my heart, my heart would bleed.
Hope he can make you happy, just pour liquid love down your throat.
Remember, I surrendered you to him so you would be whole.
DO I CARE?
It’s rare, to care.
Impersonal, empathetic-less, and maybe even foolish.
It’s a way of life to not feel for another.
It’s the self made, I’m the shit attitude you carry.
It’s the “I don’t care what makes you happy” I want gratification kiddish ways we strive for.
It’s the lust we thrust for, not the love that is earned and that we fought for.
It’s all a joke and nothing is talked about, one emotion robot go ahead and hide the sorrow.
Do you know anger? Are you too happy to show it? You hide behind that fake grin instead of feeling grim.
Do I care?
Fuck yes I do! I feel all those other emotions that bring on the tears! I can be happy and blue! I can be all those emotions that are untrue to you.
This is the way I feel.
My love for you, unreal.
It’s lovely you see,
To be in love like me.
It’s a maddening love, the one that leave us blind.
The one that starves and slowly makes you loose your mind.
If I could hold you as hard as I could,
I’d hate to say you would be like brittle wood.
You would snap because of my love.
There would be no escaping my adorations.
There is no love filtration.
I would turn you into a gluttonous monster,
I would feed you all the love I could muster.
Let me give you my lovely love.
Let me be all you need.
Let me make your heart scream.
Let me lovingly hold your heart to squeeze all the love for me.