Kaleidoscope Sky

How did I get here? I can't feel my body, I can hardly breathe. I think I'm moving, I can feel the bumps in what I can only assume is a road. What time is it? Who am I? How did I get here? The once noisy, claustrophobic ambulance is gone. Everything is gone. There are no more thoughts, it's darkly peaceful. ~~~ I grabbed my bag and lazily slung it over my shoulder. I winced as I whipped open the front door. I could feel my pupils shrink as the light dove into them. My sunken eyes and half hearted expression was met with two bright smiles and one monster hug. A battle was raging in my head, to do this or not to. I brushed the demon and the angel off my shoulders. I was determined to try to have fun. Laura tugged at my cheek and Chaz told me to get excited. Honestly I was, but I had a nagging feeling that something bad was going to happen. I pushed those thoughts into a bottle and quickened my pace to match their skipping. Laura and I both bought two tabs each. The white pieces of paper were clad in small happy face baggies which seemed almost unfitting. Her eyes sparkled as she dragged me across the parking lot into the Taco Bell restroom. I took one last glance at the chemical covered squares and shoved them in my lip. I couldn’t tell you why I did it, but I lied. I told Chaz that I dropped a tab in the toilet and he handed me another. Hastily I placed it in my mouth along with the others. I could hear my boyfriends repetitive pleas to spit them out echoing through my head. I should have listened, but of course I didn't. I just wanted to have a good time. ~~~ I don’t know how we got to Woodhaven, but I didn’t care. The 25i had me in a chokehold and was taking me on one hell of a trip. I look up at the cottonball clouds, gazing longingly at the kaleidoscope sky. It was beautiful, a view that words could never do justice. In that moment, any sadness I had previously obsessed over had melted away with the trees. Nothing could phase this bliss; I felt free. I heard a giggle and something that sounded like an urgent warning. I can’t tell you the time window between Chaz yelling and Laura running into me, but it had to have been short. The last words I heard were, “Oh shit! Cass is broken!” The panicky words trailed off as my body went limp, boneless. Without any warning the warm, light hearted evening turned cold. After thirty minutes of my unconscious body flopping about on the unforgiving concrete, I came too. Flashes of red, faint screaming, hands pulling at my unwilling clothing, black.

Ouch. A powerful shock rings through my body, sending shivers up my spine. I lift my heavy eyelids and am almost immediately drilled with questions of who I am and what occurred this afternoon. Eventually fuzzy memories seep back into my head through the cracks the pavement caused, but I still don’t know who I am, what time it is, or how I got here...