Blow me away
She screams
I have to help her
but I have no courage
rooted in place
I stare at the window where
I hear the bone melting slaps
and her cries fill the air
as she sucks for her next breath
but she is stopped with a rampage of fists
I should help
but I remember my history
and cringe at confronting them
my inner demons squeal with laughter at my weakness
but as I near the door
my brain flashes back to a time where I wasn't safe
where I once feared the oncoming hits
so I sit down and cry
the tears are used to this and make their usual path lazily down my face
I pray towards anything really to
just blow me away
I’m Sorry
I'm sorry I ever thought you would care
as you sit with the new me
with your arm draped over her like shes a gift youll never let go
I'm sorry I ever fell for you
your swag was so deliscious
the love you gave so toxic
I should have seen it coming
you chase to destroy
and I feel into your trap
you spun lies into rainbows
and I blindly raced to find the end
where you and me belonged
But there was no us there was you and me
the dumb bitch who gave you pleasure and then you dropped her
like a hot plate
I'm sorry that my knife slipped into your gut 3 times
I'm sorry that your dead
I'm sorry.....
Black Girl’s Pity
I see you.
I see straight through to your soul.
Born and raised by a mom’s downfall
her hurts became your hurts
her pain your anger
you have fought since the day you took your first breath
sucking in second hand smoke filled air
making you feel like a bag full of shit on old cement
a bird with broken wings
but you never gave up
you bad mouthed your way through middle school because it was the only way to feel
because you had to be tough to feel anything
because to survive you had to endure pain like nails being ripped out one by one
now 18 and pregnant with anger and hate that consumes your soul
you see me
cheery, wide awake, happy
ready to face the world with open hands
Your anger is caged like a tiger in a circus
that suddenly breaks free slashing at me with claws sharp as knives
Hateful words spit at me like a spider snagging its prey
you hate me
its obvious
I have become someone you can only wish to be
and the last thing you need is some black girls pity.