A cool biting wind chills me to the bone but I so enjoy this time of year .

I take a walk looking at the awesome displays of colors surrounding me .

I harken back to days when I was just a small toddler . Run jump in a pile of all the fallen leaves it made me so good warm inside . It was a time of innocence and joy about everything .

I continue walking down the path and am greeted by runners and puppy dogs with there human counterparts . "Good day youngster ! Are you getting a good workout " said one gentleman . Another lady came running by and stopped "why u look so sad boy ? It's a great day ". She continued on I just keep walking and thinking about those fun years as a toddler . Everything in world was right and I could do no wrong boy what happened times have changed . I can no longer do nothing right in my parents eyes . You have to make 90 or above on your grades or your grounded . All your chores and schoolwork are more important you don't need friends that's for sure ! Friends are even more trouble peer pressures is a real thing and it causes so much more stress . Go talk to your counselor and teachers they will listen to you and help you . Yeah right go ask I'm busy come back another time you have it easy or here's one response u got love I don't have time for you I'm busy . This is why I'm out here today a stupid teenager whose dumb and immature to handle life at least that's what I'm told and then you get this from friends and family if you don't get you a girlfriend soon then you will be alone all your life . Your a loser if you don't have one . I'm wondering around looking for something so I don't have to put up with any of this ! If only one person would stop take a few minutes and let me get this off my head and help give me some answers to cope better then I would have to do this . Here's the bridge over the highway finally it won't be long now I left my notes for everyone to say goodbye . I told everyone I loved them and hope they can finally be happy without me . I will miss my sweet dog Rufus it was so hard leaving him and loving him one last time . Oh god why am I crying so much just get up on ledge and do it already traffic is busy enough . Oh no my neighbors son Colby is coming . "Hey Gregory why are you crying "? I tell him it's nothing really and tell him to have a good day it's not important but he sits down on the ledge and answers me " I know I not much older than you but I can tell you one thing everything is important that includes you so tell me what's going on ". I try and tell him excuses but he won't leave me alone . "Come on Gregory I can tell your really sad I'm here spill the beans to me I'm here and I'm listening ". I decide to tell him my problems it all came rushing out and I told him I wanted to just die because nobody was willing to listen to a failure like me and I fell down into his arms sobbing loudly and asked him to keep it between us . He answered back crying " let me tell you something your not a failure your a misunderstood teenage that nobody thinks about what there doing to you because they think you can handle it and in fact there pushing you to this point . I can promise you this if you come with me now and go to my house I will listen I'll be there anytime you need me to be and my mom and dad will try help ease your pressures to . What do you say ? I been through a lot of what your going through and one more thing Gregory you need to know your as important as anybody in this world never think otherwise ! You have a friend now no expectations no conditions I love you just like you are ! "Thank you a rush of relief shoots through my mind and I reluctantly say yes . Wow it's ben two weeks since that day and I have talked to Trevor project person regularly as well as Colby and his parents and I'm happy to report in making progress and I'm happy I didn't do it and Colby was there to stop me .i have lots of work still to be happier but I am doing projects with Colby that occupy my time so I'm not dwelling on life so much . So for now that's my story. And as you can see one person taking time to help someone does make a difference .We will catch up soon !

Why does this always happen ?

I'm always running

Never stopping

My brain keeps running

Twist turns and heavy storms

It's like I am drowning

All day long my mind is racing

I can't get my thoughts together

I can't just relax and enjoy life

Why ? Can anyone please help me ?

I can't get away from this nightmare

I run and run and run

Out of breath heart beating wildly

Is something after me ?

Is it someone I'm running from?

Is it me running away from the life I live ?

These storms in my head are just to much .

Please be silent for just a little while please .

I need a little peace and quite

Crash boom flashes of light

Not letting up any .

Running running on the waterfront

Beep ! Beep ! Beep !

I awake finally wet from the storms throughout the night finally I can breathe a calm breath air.

Stretching and moving I feel as though I ran a marathon all night .

Time to wake up start yet another day .