Anxiety.

As I get older, I seem to get more anxious. Particularly in social situations.

I recently saw a quote on Instagram which perfectly summed up my social anxiety:

"You have anxiety, so you avoid social situations. You avoid social situations, so you become worse at socialising. You're bad at socialising, so it gives you more anxiety." -- anxietydisorderprobs.tumblr.com

Only a few of my friends understand how this feels.

Some understand and help me cope in these situations.

Others think they understand, but really have no idea as to the extent of how disabling and alarming it can be. Both physically and mentally.

Often when I've felt I can voice my feelings to someone regarding my social anxiety, I am often told "Just go, you'll be alright", or "Just talk to someone, you'll be fine." "Just do this", "Just do that"...

It unfortunately doesn't work that way. If only it were that easy to solve! Once someone even suggested that I "decided to be an introvert and not talk to anyone"! Nope. Not something I decided to feel or be.

I sit back and watch other humans seemingly confident and able to talk in social situations and wonder how the hell they do it!?

I live a lot of my life in my head.

Now it's time to release some of that life and start my Prose Page.

Now it's time to start The Adventures of Social Anxiety Girl.