Take Me Away- Diary Entry

Dear diary,

" At first everything seemed normal and usual but little had I known that this world filled with competition could be so harsh upon someone. It didn't take me long enough to wonder "Is this what following dreams look like?" and it was the time when I just started to walk down this lane. This was the very lane which I had once aspired, for which I had once fought against my parents, for which I believed that I could throw away everything and which I almost did. This was the lane which I thought would make me happier, would fill in whatever I had left behind when I walked through that door with my bags packed and an uncertain return date. This was the lane to the life which I had once dreamt but had I know that this very lane had only thorns and no roses, I am certain that I would have been better off without knowing the need of dreaming something. Please don't get me wroung here, I am not complaining about the hardships one has to face to achieve something great. I would gladly struggle to come over these hardships and move further towards the goal.

But what if the more you struggle, the more you degrade?

And what if the chance right infront of your eyes gets grabbed by someone else.... you all must be thinking that its my fault for not being able to grab it but I tell you I was more than ready to grab it.... you also must be thinking that it might've been a coincidence that someone else got it that time, but what do you call a coincidence that happens for a third or even a fourth time?

I cannot even just quit back and return because I am scared. I am scared of returning back without having something to show off after all the things I had gone through to follow this lane. I am sacred that I will start to blame myself every night; some nights I will end up blaming myself for choosing this very lane and some nights without a doubt I would be blaming myself for leaving it mid-way. And that is why I started to pray to these stars every night that - I need nothing but just a day of relief. But even this sky gets cloudier and these stars hid themselves. " I found myself contemning upon my situation.

It was morning already, so after having collected all these thoughts, I woke up and started for the day. And as I walked down the hallway of the practice room I could hear them whispering about me. Baseless rumours, contempt and that double glance - I had almost gotten used to them, I would just face them head on and greet them " Good morning " which would shush them a little but today for some reason I felt way more tired and I wished I could just become invisible. And as I walked futher down, I felt that people didn't notice me. I thought to myself ," Did I really become invisible? " but that couldn't be scientifically possible right? I went to the washroom and I couldn't see my own image on the mirror. But you know I was just too tired to be shocked. So I just found a comfortable place passing through the crowds who didn't notice me and took a nice nap.

I wasn't there but I was. I was doing things on my own while remaining visible to some people and while remaining unseen to the others. It had been a while since I had last enjoyed doing what I was doing. There were no stares pulling me down, no contempts going on while I was there and more importantly " fair play " was going on. Because if you cannot see me, what can you possibly do to stop me? I even grabbed my long awaited oppurtunity. All those people are sure to be so shocked and angry after finding it out tommorow. And for me, my life's just gonna get better. I suddenly got so emotional of achieving something after bearing through all those and moreover it was just because I had suddenly got this superpower? Maybe even I was going against the " fair play " but I started to wonder would my family and friends back home be happy if they heard about it? I was just wondering about going home and suddenly I reached home, hurridely I tired to conceal myself from my new found power of invisibility. I saw my parents looking at my picture from elementary school and after all those fights I thought that I would be on pretty bad terms. But they were smiling so warmly and wishing for wellbeing and sucess. I couldn't stop myself from crying and the words " I love you mom, dad" came out from my mouth. My mom looked confused for a while and turned here and there. My dad looked at my mom and asked what's wrong ? She told him that she felt like she heard me speaking and saying that I loved them. She just laughed and thought it was all her imagination. But they replied that they loved me anyway.

After crying my eyes out, I thought that it was about time I returned and while I was wondering how ? I just reached. I felt so relieved and just fung onto the bed. When I woke up I recieved a weird text message, there was no info about the sender and it simple said - Had a day to relax? But these powers were granted only for a day ok? Even if I want to thank these mysterious powerhouse,I cannot reply to that text. Everything that has happened today feels so surreal the invisibility, that little amount of telepathy and that supernatural flight but I guess my prayers were finally heard. Its almost midnight and the stars seems to be out. I will just go and thank them I guess.

Thats it for today.

I will write to you soon.

Goodnight diary !